What are you really sure of?
Some years ago on one of my meditation
camps we were encouraged to select a person in the crowd, sit with him/her, and
continue to dialogue with the other just one question, “ Who are you?”
As you began answering the question, the same
question would be repeated, ‘who are you?’ and so on. It soon became obvious to me, that all the
answers I provided were more around, ‘What I am?’ than to ‘who I was’. I could
describe a name, a role in an organization, adjectives to describe relationships
with other people, some values I held very dear to me. As the same question
repeated itself on and on, I began to experience myself conjecture opinions
about myself: beliefs I held about myself. But sadly, these were just beliefs:
I doubted deeply whether they were true. Like when I once replied, “I am part
of the deep consciousness”, was that something I knew, or believed in. What was I really sure of?
Ouspensky wrote, “Our aim
is to become one, to have one permanent "I". But in the beginning
work means to become more and more divided. You must realize how far you are
from being one, and only when you know all these fractions of yourself can work
begin on one or some principal "I"s around which unity can be built.
It would be wrong understanding to unify all the things you find in yourself
now. The new "I" is something you do not know at present; it grows
from something you can trust. At first, in separating false personality from
you, try to divide yourself into what you can call reliable and what you find
unreliable”.
So remember,
whenever someone asks you, Who are you? Do you end up answering what you believe you are?
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